Monday, July 7, 2008

Why I have been absent from writing...

I was reading Beth's blog (melting mama) and I was so proud of her for talking about her health issues since bypass. She is 4 years out. I am not a year out yet. But, I stopped writing because people seem to only want to hear the stories of "I went from a size 24 to a size 12", or all the good stuff. No one wants to hear anything bad. So, I figured that I wouldn't even write about it.

But, the fact is....this is my life. 6 out of the 9 months, I have been in the hospital. I just got out of being in the hospital for almost 2 months. I am 5 weeks out from that surgery. My body completely rejected the RNY. The surgery itself seemed to have been perfect or so i was told. But, my body has had a major reaction to it. I have had real problems from the surgery. Yep, it was my choice and yes, these are the consequences. I went into it with the right reasons....trying to reverse my health problems. Now, I have more serious health issues.

I am not even a year out and have severe drops in blood sugar and blood pressure. To the point, that I can black out easy. I have 3 kids that I have to take care of. I know that I will be spending a lot of time with specialists now to figure this all out.

It has taken a lot away from me emotionally. It is hard to think that you made this life altering decision and then for me to be in that "percentage" where things go wrong. My surgeon is great....however, as great as he is...he doesn't really want to hear about how things are not going so good. Sometimes you are led to believe that you have a mental problem or you are imagining the pain. I have been neither one of these.

I want to start writing again and talking about my life. Because I have totally been censoring myself. Thank you Beth for giving me the strength to talk about what can really happen and if you don't want to hear it, the good news is that you don't have to read it. But, maybe somewhere, it can help someone else.

I hope all is well in internet land!!!


Trish said...

We have only met once, at your wedding. My husband went to school with yours. I was addicted to your blog about bringing home your son. I have been following you on this page also and check in periodically. I am so sorry to hear about the issues you are having. I think you should continue to write, especially to help others in the same situation. I will read and we will keep you in our prayers.

Tricia said...

good to see you are back! wow, sounds like the last year has been a nightmare.